The last month has been the most trying time of my life so far. I was diagnosed with cancer, my car broke down, and my finances have been so tight I couldn’t squeeze a penny more out of it. I have felt, discouraged, and dismayed. I went from being on top of the mountain, doing well at work, buying a home, and my baby starting Kindergarten to the lowest I have felt in years. Yet through all of what seemed like absolute chaos I can see God’s hands right there with me gently guiding me and holding me up through this time. I have felt His peace all around me. I have felt so supported by my friends and family through all of this. We were able to schedule the surgery to remove the cancer quickly, Dec 17th to be exact. God is so good to schedule this so quickly! At 5 days before the surgery I received the phone call from both my surgeon’s office and the hospital regarding my financial responsibility before they would perform the surgery. The total was over $2200! I was reeling, how could I possibly come up with that kind of money in just 5 days? The answer was clear, I couldn’t come up with that kind of money. Me little ole me couldn’t do it, but My God could do it for me! I posted this status on my Facebook “There will be no doubt when this happens, it will be God’s doing and not my own. Even with every discouraging piece of news I have received in the last month, He is there holding me up with His right hand telling me everything WILL be OK. This time will be no different!”
My sister and I set up a “ Go Fund me account and shared it on Facebook, to see if we could raise some of the money, thinking small we thought we would possible raise a quarter to half of the amount. By the end of the first day we had raised $745! By the end of the second day we had raised the FULL AMOUNT!!I have been in absolute amazement all weekend. Every time my phone buzzed with a new notification that there was a donation made, my heart leapt from my chest! I want to say a special Thank You to all of my close family and friends who not only shared my Go Fund Me page, but also donated! I would also like to Thank Jennifer Griffin, Amanda Coer’s, Sarah Criddle, and huge thank you to all of my Trim Healthy Blogging Buddies that shared my page and asked your readers for help. Your support is priceless and without it I dont know that this would have been accomplished. Within 48 hours of what seemed to be an insurmountable problem, EVERY single penny was raised! God provided in a miraculous way. This situation reminded me of an old lesson I have learned over and over again.
A few years ago I spoke at a ladies retreat. I shared a simple truth that I have held onto in my life. The power of speaking God’s word over our life. The bible is filled with HIS wisdom, His promises and His Love for us. During this David and Goliath moment I began to once again pray God’s promises over my life. I held on tight to my life verses of hope. This is a discipline that takes work; it isn’t always easier to do. I have a small scrapbook at home that I have written many verses on. I love to flip through it, and read those scriptures. I want to encourage you to find your own life scriptures, to draw your strength from. Here are a few of my anchor verses that I have written on post it notes and stuck to the bottom of my computer monitor at work to remind me every day:
For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord. Plans for good and not Evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Come to me all who are weary and I will give you rest, for my burden is light.
Despite all these things, OVERWHELMING VICTORY is ours through Christ who loved us.
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! Philipians 4:13
Even there your hand will guide me your right hand will hold me fast. Psalm 139:10
Do not fear for I am with you, do not be dismayed for I am your God, I will strengthen you and help you, I will hold you up with my Righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
When we pray the word of God over our lives, there is a sense of peace that surpasses all human understanding. When a friend of mine who doesn’t believe in God asked me “Melissa with all the bad things that have happened to you and now having cancer, how can you still praise a God who would let this happen?” I smiled to her and gave her a hug and replied “When I CHOOSE to be believe in God it is not because he promised me that it would be easy, in fact His word says the opposite and guarantee’s that by following Him I am in for trials and tribulation. The difference is that I have faith that my Savior is holding me up through the storm and a hope that when the storm is over I will come out stronger and better than ever “